Burning For You, Part One

I awoke in bed, light streaming in through the open windows. I looked for Laura, but she wasnt there. I got up, put my pants on and walked into the open room. Everyone had congregated around the dining room table, probabbly eating breakfest.

I sat down at one of the seats and everyone said their 'hellos'.

"What are we doing today?" I asked.

Everyone just mumbled. I looked up and saw Sarah glaring at me. Jared looked up from his cereal, looked at me and then at Sarah. He nudged Sarah and she looked at him. Then back at me.

I got up. "I'm gonan shower." I walked into my room, took of my clothing and then turned on the shower. I got in, and started soaping up. I heard the door open, and then wiped away the fog on the glass. Laura had walked in, and was taking off her clothing. It was the first time I saw her naked since I was with Amanda.

She opened the door and I looked at her. I smiled.

She shut the door and started soaping up. But for some reason, this time, i didn't feel anything. I didn't have the urge to make love to her right there, like before. She started lathering me, but I quickly stopped her.

"No...I'm not in the mood."

She just stared at me.

"What's wrong with you? Ever since you got home last night, it's like...we're not even together. Last night you just pushed me away from you, and now this. What the fuck?" She seemed so saddended, and I wanted to talk, but I didnt. I just stood there, water spraying on us, and looked down.

Not only was I desperatly tryign to come up with an excuse, I was also wondering why 'he' wasn't getting up. It's like all of a sudden, Laura wasn't mine. I quicky tried to think up what happened, what might of changed, and Amanda flashed in my mind. Then 'he' was up.

"You're obviously in the mood." She smirked, with a hint of anger.

I couldn't tell her it wasn't her, but what could I say.

"It's not you." i said.

She just looked at me.

she leaned against the tile and slowly slid down the wall, into a sitting position. She started crying.

"Why the fuck didn't I beleive Sarah..." She said.

"Sarah?"

"I know, all about Amanda. I didn't believe Sarah. Jared told her, and swore her not to tell. But fucking please, what was she to do?"

I looked at her. We both stood and sat there, naked, water still pouring down on us.

I kneeled down. "I'm so, so, sorry. I was tottally drunk and had no idea what was happening." I tried to tell her the truth.

"Fucking bullshit." She cried. She just cried as I put my arms around her. She just cried as I told her how sorry I was. She just cried as I held her there, and moved her on my lap. We just sat there, rocking back and forth, her crying, me trying to apologize.

Then I started to cry. She looked at me, still crying. The tears rolled down my face. "I'm so, fucking sorry" I said.

She looked at me.

"Katherine's pregnant and Keith doesn't know. Are you responsible for that too?" She slapped me and got up. She got a towel and walked out of the bathroom.

I sat on the shower floor, and just fell to my side. The cool tile on the side of my face felt good in comparison to the hot water pouring on me.

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I walked out of my room, slowly. Keith, Lillie and Luke were in the living room, and everyone else was outside.

I looked at Keith. I looked outside and saw Katherine.

Was it even his?